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Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Hockey and back to school, what???

It's hockey season again. And that means I am a single parent (pretty much) for the next 5 months or so!  The only thing different about this year is that I am going back to school starting January 17th!  I'm crazy I know... 

Poor John will have to balance hockey and the girls for 11weeks (M-F 8-2pm).  For him it will be hell, for me a little piece of Heaven.  I can't wait to hear him say, "We NEED you, we can't do this without you, I never knew how hard it is..."  You get my drift, right?!  Although I can imagine he will be in a bad mood most days, GREAT! I feel bad for the hockey girls, he will probably skate them a lot, sorry!! (that means sprinting on skates for a LONG time for those of you who don't live in hockey world, like me)

Off to school I go.  I am actually doing the CNA program through Maine Medical Center.  The best part is, it's FREE! AND once I get hired they will give me $$$$ to go back to school to get my RN! Which is my goal, but to have it paid for, even better!

I love being a SAHM, but I'm not going to lie, it's getting old. I feel like I don't appreciate my kids, and what I mean by that is I never get a chance to MISS them! I am ALWAYS with at least one of them!  I will continue to stay home with them, scheduling my future classes around preschool, and such, but I can't wait to be around other adults!  And the $$$ part is also going to help us out.  We budget things now, but when I am and RN making lots of $$$ I can go out and buy whatever I want, yippeeeeee! ( for the most part)  I just won't feel so restricted, you know what I mean??

And I have to go, why you ask...??? Crying and coughing from short and blond, she's up from her 40 minute nap, my poor baby isn't feeling well! :(

I will keep you all updated on school, and everything else!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Emotional times

So for all of you who don't know, I have been trying to wean Taytum off the boob for about 6 months now.  I nursed Cayden until 18 months, and so I thought I would do the same for Taytum...she at 18 months was NOT ready!  So I let her take the lead... hoping that when she was in kindergarten that the teacher wouldn't mind me coming in for lunch....!

It slowed down a lot over the summer.  She stopped needing a naptime snack, but before bed it was still "nuurrsse" ( awh I miss her saying it already) On September 12th she took her last swig of the boob.  The next couple of nights she didn't ask to nurse, and I didn't offer it to her either.  We cuddled and I gave her a sippy of milk (from the moo cow). She seemed fine, 9 days down, and tonight before nun-nights...
She asked "nuurrsse" and Mommy said "No, all gone"  And she said NO, hit me and cried for 10 minutes.  She finally gave in, grabbed her sippy, rolled over and crashed!  How do I feel?  Fine I guess??

Honestly, it was a rough night for me.  I watched this new show Raising Hope, and it was supposed to be funny but it made me hysterically cry??? Why? The grandparents started singing to the baby to get her asleep because the Dad had been up all night with her, and all I could think of was the girls are growing up too fast.  I remember singing to them at night when they wouldn't sleep, I still sing to and with them.  Sleepless nights are all but gone and it really makes me sad.  Cuddly, chubby baby legs/bums/bellies/etc are all but gone.

I was most upset because I catch myself wishing that they were a little bit older a lot, so we could do this, or they wouldn't whine so much, or blah-blah-blah...WHY????????????   I know that there will be days in the near and far future that I will look at them like I did tonight and wish that we were all back to those CRAZY sleepless nights, singing-rocking-nursing-cuddling.  I miss my babies, but love the little girls they are turning into. (My throat is tight as I am typing this, I'm holding back the tears!)

And I am starting birth control pills Sunday, for the 1st time in like 8 years, we had a little "scare" this month, but phew Aunt Flo is here! (maybe the emotional part is because Aunt Flo is visiting, she wears me down,lol??)  

From this entry you would think I want another baby, but I really LOVE the two daughters I have. And we are 100% not ready for another baby financially(us), emotionally(me), and physically( me,I have been prego or nursing since Jan of 06')  Who knows what the future holds, but John and I will love each other and our baby girls forever!

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

School Days

Cayden's first day of preschool went a little like this:

  1. She did NOT want pictures taken.  BUT I did get a few, hehehehe!
  2. We pull into the parking lot and she informs John and I that she wants to go by herself, and that she does NOT want us going in with her. UMMMM ok???
  3. We are the 1st people there, and she is so excited she forgets that we follow her inside, YES!
  4. We meet Miss Mary and Miss Deidre, and she is not shy at all!
  5. Off to the cubby room to put her picture on her cubby and see where she hangs her coat and backpack! She is too excited!
  6. Playtime, and she is off playing! John and I watch and feel so proud she isn't clinging to us for dear life!
  7. Circle Time with friends, she sits by Miss Deidre all by herself!  She listens to everyone, and even told the class her name, which I thought she would definitely clam up!
  8. Scavenger Hunt, we helped her with that! Silly Bands for a prize, yay!
  9. Story Time!  She listened to the story, and when the teachers asked questions she answered all of them!  John and I stood and watched her, and we were so proud of her! 
  10. Snack Time.  Bananas, thank goodness because that is the ONLY fruit Cayden will eat!
  11. Everyone went outside after that to play on the playground!
So John and I are super happy with the school we chose for Cayden.  She loves it, and the program is wonderful.  If you are looking for a preschool in the future Gorham Cooperative Preschool is fabulous!

We are looking forward to her going by herself, and watching her grow this year!

AND ballet with Mirs. Betsy starts today! We are so excited to see our dance friends!!!

Friday, August 27, 2010


Do you ever have those dreams where you have no idea what's going one when you wake up?

I really feel like these dreams started when I got pregnant with Cayden.  Ok I admit anything weird, or not-so-normal started while I was pregnant with her.  LIKE I forget so much. I mean like I will have my keys in my hand, then place them somewhere, and 5 minutes later go searching for my keys that I put RIGHT here??? That is what my life is like everyday, searching for things, like my cell phone, and it's right in front of me. (JOHN call my cell phone I can't find it)!!  This blog came to mind after my crazy dream and a conversation with my BFF yesterday about her searching for her cell phone while she was on it talking to me...NOW that's bad Leigh, LOL!

Back to my dream, oh wait I can't remember my f-ing dream, (must be from my post-pregnancy brain) All I can remember is that.... Damn it's gone....!

Does this happen to you???

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Big girl

My baby is getting older, and it's causing me to have so many feelings...

We had our 1st time parents meeting last night, sounds scary doesn't it??!!  Actually it went great.  John stayed home with the girls and I went to the meeting, time away from the monsters is wonderful!

I am chairing the cleaning committee for the Co-op. What does that mean you ask??? I have no freaking clue...YET!! I hope it's not too time consuming, but because I am soooo nice and do want to help out where I can I volunteered to do this job!!

SUCKER is totally tattooed on my forehead, if you look hard enough you will see it!

Cayden starts at GCP on September 7th and is so excited. I am happy, but a little sad too(sniffle).  She will be going Tuesday's and Thursday's from 12-2:30pm. Now what are Taytum and I going to do? Nap, read books, watch Netflix or DVR'd show's??? Who knows but I am looking forward to some alone time with her, because going through Cayden's baby book revealed that she was WAY smarter at 2 then Taytum is. I know. I know no comparing, but it is totally my fault.  Cayden got all of my attention for 2 years, and poor Taytum well you know the rest!  BAD MOMMY!

We also have switched Cayden to a booster seat, gosh she is getting so big! She is a little girl now, not a baby or a toddler, but a little girl!  I love it and hate it at the same time!  She is so "grown up", some of the things she says is too funny!
Enjoy every moment with your child everyday, because they really do grow up in the blink of any eye!

Sunday, July 4, 2010


I'm sticky-sweaty-stinky HOT, and who wants to sit on my lap or have me hold her all day?  I heart Miss Taytum but, man!  But I as type this she is sitting on my lap sweaty-sticky with peanut butter all over her face laughing at me because I told her to stop biting the desk?

So today I gave my sister-in-law my maternity clothes. How am I feeling?

a. Sad
b. Happy
c. Settled
d. Relieved

My answer is all of the above with a strong connection to D!  It's like a realization that Cayden and Taytum will be my only two children, and I am happy with that.  I know they are only clothes, and we all now clothes can be replaced/returned but I feel like it has lifted a big weight off my shoulders.

I guess only time will tell if another Lauziere will make an entrance through my cervix(hehe) but for now I am 99% sure we are done! We'll see what the big man upstairs has planned for us though...

Sunday, June 6, 2010

:) :) :)

She did it!!!!  YAYAYAYAYAYAYAAAAAAAAAA!!!  I am so happy! It's crazy how one moment can make you laugh, smile, and cry all at once! 

Recital was a blast, they were so cute on stage!! I am so proud of her especially after the difficult times we've had this year with Cayden's "I am not doing what you tell me to do attitude"! Yes I bought her 2 presents one for rehearsal, and one for recital, but it worked!! I heart bribery! And so do you, admit it...!!!

And so ballet is done until fall, I am happy to have my Wednesday afternoons back, but sad I won't be seeing all the Mom's, girls, and of course Betsy!  Until September...

And Amy in 2 years this will be Greta and Taytum smiling for pictures for us, if you can believe that!?

                                                               Piper and Cayden

Monday, May 31, 2010


I did plyometrics yesterday and today I can't move...did I do the whole hour...NO only 20 minutes!  How can 20 minutes make me feel this way?  I really do love the video though, this was my 1st one, so wish me luck! I am taking a break today, and will do more tomorrow...

I have no choice really, since sitting down and going to the bathroom is nearly impossible I can't imagine trying to do jumping squats!!

I am motivated right now so I must take advantage of it! I wish I had more time and energy though!

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

10 things

I have had NO time to blog, grrrrr! SO today on this super hot Wednesday I decided to say a few things:

1. My sister-in-law is pregnant with baby #1, yippeee!  She is like 8 weeks so it's still early, but we are so happy for her!

2. Life with a 3 1/2 year old who thinks she has the answers for everything can be enlightening to say the least. Cayden "Mom here is a date card for you, and some flowers" Me "what is a date card?" Cayden "It means Love"  Me "OMG, I love you so much Cayden" tear :(  It was a red piece of paper with scribbles on it (words) and some white weed flowers from the lawn!  I will be saving them, lol!

3.  Taytum does this sweet look with her eyes that makes EVERYONE laugh, especially out John she's going to use this on you when she's 16... to be continued!

4. My floors need to be washed sooooo bad! I mean BAD!  I refuse to do it at this point because everyday that dog and the kids track water, dirt, mud, you name it and it's on my floor.  So by fall they should look REALLY bad!   No I will do it, at some point!

5. Recital is right around the corner, 10 days away...If you follow my blog I don't really need to elaborate!

6. I am reading The Pledge, it's old and was made into a movie in the 90's, but it is really good! (The Skulls I think was the movie)

7. Summer is on it's way and I am super excited. The girls and I are outside all the time, it's wonderful!

8. I want to wean Taytum so bad, but she refuses! Any comments/suggestions welcome...continued with #9

9. I want to wean Taytum to drop this extra baby weight I've been carrying around since I was pregnant/nursing Cayden! Yes people I have been pregnant or nursing since January of 2006...

10.  I love my husband, no matter what I say about him behind his back or to his face, I do love him.

So my 10 things I wanted to mention for the month of May! I could and may elaborate on them more or in the future,  who knows!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

I miss...

Do you remember REAL sleep?

I'm talking about coming home from high school, crawling into bed and sleeping until past dinner?  Everyday!! And in college when you would just spend the day in bed because you didn't feel like going to class, or were way too hung over to move??

I miss sleep! Plain and simple. I miss having my own bed!  Yes, I know both of our kids sleep with us(huge mistake)but even having John in there is a pain too.  SNORING! Omg, sometimes I make him go into Cayden's bed because he is sooooo loud! (It's not like she's in there)  I miss just sprawling out and sleeping a whole 8 hours without waking up! 

It has been since about May 2006 since I have slept a full night(4months pregnant w/Caycay)!  I must tell you that for some odd reason I am now a light sleeper.   I now wake up for every and anything! I hate it, and as soon as I am done nursing Taytum(i'm not going there........) I am asking the Dr for sleeping pills, IF my sleeping patterns don't change!

The only bonus it when the girls are in high school and try to sneak out of the house I WILL hear them!

awe the beauty of motherhood!!!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Slow and steady

Why do we as people who live in neighborhoods have to have perfect grass, flowers blooming, shrubs and plants planted any and everywhere???

Well let me tell you, the Lauziere's are last to do everything on Captain's Way!  We still haven't vinyl sided our garage yet, and it's been 2 years, hahahaha!  BUT we just got the siding and John is doing it SOON!!

Our grass looks,ok?  From far away it looks good, but when you get up close it's got more bald spots then my dear husband! (love you John) So every year we throw some fertilizer down, and for some odd reason it ends up looking really good, but it's a total trick!

We finally just dug up our front to plant some shrubs, and flowers! We have been here for almost 3 years and we STILL didn't plant anything out in front of our house, whatever!  Listen we have to build a brick wall because if we don't our plants will end up on our driveway when it rains, so that's our excuse!  BUT I'm working on it! Leave me alone!

At least our driveway is paved!

All I can say is I wish we had enough money,(It's going to be like $150 for a stupid rock wall, that's w/o plants) or family/friends to give us plants like our lovely neighbors. I would spend hours out there planting! Their houses really do look great, and within the next 2-3 years ours will be there too. Slow and steady wins the race right???

And BTW why the hell are plants SOOOOOOOOO expensive???

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Picture Day

Ok so this Saturday was supposed to be one of those days that is fun and exciting full of joy, well let's just say it didn't turn out as I expected.  Maybe that's my problem having expectations?  Who knows?

"Picture Day"

Saturday morning:  I get up with Comet at 5ish, have my coffee, clean a little...
6:30 I take a shower by myself while the girls and John slumber! (Whatev)
7:30 I am off to Walmart, and then to Target (by myself) to get Mega Hold  hairspray for Cayden's "perfect ballerina bun", lipstick/gloss, and a new tea set for her AFTER she takes her pictures for dance class!
9ish I'm back and we all play outside enjoying this beautiful sunny day!
12:15pm  I start doing "the perfect ballerina bun" on my dear first born, and she is letting me pull, tug, brush, pin with little complaints! Yippeeee!  And by 12:40 the perfect ballerina bun is born!
12:45 Cayden and I are off the the Dance Studio of Maine for 1:30 pictures!

(Now I have to tell you, I got Cayden a present for after she got her pictures done because bribery works with children most of the time. If that makes me a bad parent, then sign me up for an award, because I use bribery almost everyday.  I feel that I would yell, scream, and spank, a lot more if I didn't use bribery? Comments welcome)

1:00 We get there, and it is chaos!  Good chaos though!  Cayden was so excited to put on her costume like all the other little, and big girls around her!  We got it on, choker tied, hair piece in and she was totally fine! I forgot my camera (of course) but I thought "who cares, I am spending like $25.00 on pictures of her in a few minutes right?!"  Other mom's are taking pictures of all the girls, and taking some for me (bless them!).
1:30 Betsy comes in to get the girls and take them to the other room to get their pictures done.  They chu-chu in and Emma, one of Cayden's little friends is feeling sad, so Cayden grabs her hand and helps her! Awe so sweet!
1:35 Cayden comes back in the room to get me crying, "I don't want to get my picture taken"!

I take her back in and try to get her to do her individual picture, no luck.  I tell her her special present is in the truck, and you can have it when you are done. "I don't want it anymore, I want to go home!"  Cayden says.  I tell her if we go home w/o you getting your pictures done, you are going to bed, hoping that would work???  So Betsy asks me to leave, which I didn't want to be in there anyway, so they can get the group picture done, and we can try to get her individual picture done at the end!

1:45 They all chu-chu out and Cayden did not do any picture at all!!!

So I am fuming MAD!  I take her costume off and we leave.  I didn't say one word to her because I felt like I was going to YELL really bad things in front of all the people!

We get to the truck and I tell her she is not getting the tea set that I got her, Taytum is! (I know, but I was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo mad!)  You know what she says when I showed it to her, "I'll go back and do it now mom"!!!  Are you kidding me????

So the way home there was some crying and yelling!  She was crying, and I was doing both!  She went to bed when she got home, and was "punished" to stay in our yard all weekend, and she couldn't play with anyone else in the neighborhood!

I was so upset.  I cried for a long time, uncontrollable sobbing!  It was been a LONG time since I have cried at all, and an even LONGER time since I sobbed like that!  I was so embarrassed!  All of the other little girls listened, and did as they were told.  Why did she not just do it?

I feel like she thinks that if she doesn't want to do something, she doesn't have to.  In certain situations that is a great trait to have, but when it's your parent telling you to do something, and for doing it you get a reward, HELLO, DO IT!  She has such a stubborn personality, and it frustrates me too much I think!

I am still very upset about this photo thing,(can you tell) not only because I won't have the "professional picture" to put in her baby book and look at with pride, and happiness, but also because I can see and feel how much control she has over me.  It's silly to some people I'm sure, but to me it meant so much!

It meant her listening to me, and to other adults, and then seeing the end result...a picture of her and her friends from her first ballet class!

So pray for recital to go better then picture day!

Thank you Denise for sending me this picture(you are so sweet), not a professional, but it's the only thing I have to put in her baby book!

(I'm in trouble from here on out with Cayden I think, and Taytum who knows at this point?!)

Wednesday, April 28, 2010


We dug a fire pit out in the backyard this weekend, and it is so fun! Cayden wanted one sooo bad, so John did one for her, spoiled brat!  I must admit that sitting by the fire is quite relaxing, even though Taytum had like 103 temp while I was sitting there, I still felt RELAXED!

I can't wait for many more fires this spring/summer/fall!  Marshmallows, smores, hotdogs...memories that will last a lifetime for all of us!

And probably a few drinks to go along with the smores...

Monday, April 26, 2010


Taytum has another ear infection. Last Sunday we took her into the Dr.'s office because she had conjunctivitis, and all week she had gross eyes, and the start of a cold.  On Friday I knew something was up, the constant whining (more then usual) was horrible.  But I waited, and I shouldn't have because on Saturday I called got her in and sure enough...ear infection!

BUT...  This infection has been BAD! She had a fever on Sunday all day of anywhere from 102.3 up to 104. I HATE fevers, they scare me, but Dr.'s aren't that afraid??  I called the Dr's office on Sunday morning, talked to someone (a nurse I think) and she told me "Well as long as she is wetting diapers, she dshould be fine, like at least 8 a day"   UM I don't change Taytum 8x's a day I told her.  Do you know how many Pampers we would have to buy??? Hello!! 

So all day I changed her every time she peed, and she was fine, but spiking fevers!  Scare me!

Today (monday) has been great, better, okay!  She is still getting fevers, milder but still fevers!  She is just not herself, not my little "Taymum"!

I can't wait until she is back to normal, only fussing most of the day not all day! (sigh)

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Earth Day!

Thank goodness my kids LOVE to be outside!  Cayden plays with the neighborhood boys, with Tay & Comet, or by herself!  It's cute watching her talk to herself! 

I am so not getting the kids a Wii, or anything like that for a long time!  I want them to enjoy nature, because it will be apart of them forever.  We played outside from sun up to sundown when we were kids, and it will be that way for my kids as well!!  I think that's why I love to be outside, anywhere!  Especially the beach! We all went to Pine Point last night to run around, and it was beautiful! The girls (and Comet) LOVED it!! Cayden and Comet went swimming!

My girls will love all things about this planet, and John and I will teach them to appreciate all that it has to offer, and to give back by reducing, reusing, and recycling!!

Happy Earth Day to all!  Go recycle or something!!!!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

And they were wearing thongs

Ok so my sister and I took Cayden, Taytum, and her son Briggs to the circus today, WOW pretty much covers it!

And by WOW I don't mean "OMG that was the best show I have ever seen", I mean "Amber, I think that girl is wearing a thong???"

Yes the trapeze artists' were wearing thongish type outfits, along with the girls who hang by their necks, and the girls who swing in hoops?  And one woman had on thigh-high boots, black with belts all over them, can you say dominatrix...  Did we go to the wrong show? 

And the acts???? STINK!!  

The kids were happy to leave at intermission if that tells you how wonderful the show was!

I totally remember the circus to be sooooooooooooo fun, WTH happened?  Or was I just a kid, and thought it was AWESOME?  I will have to call my Mom, and ask if it really was super cool, or I just thought it was!

AND we spent atleast $20 apiece on crap............................(and the word apiece looks sooo weird to me right now, am I wrong??)

Monday, April 19, 2010

2nd born

Taytum is such a needy toddler.  Yes I know when she is 10, 12,17,21 etc I will miss this, but right now I hate it!  She wants me to pick her up 24/7, and carry her around, seriously? I look forward to time away from her... And when I do leave her she is wonderful for whoever has her (for the most part) but as soon as I walk in the door, annnnnaaaawwwwwwwwwwwhhhhh MAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


She can be so independent sometimes, but when she wants me to hold her she will scream and cry until I pick her up.  She is my baby, and I am about 90% sure she is my last so should I embrace this neediness, or not?

And I don't think I am ever going to get her to stop nursing. She freaks out about that too!  So let's hope they let me come to kindergarten with her.... I am so kidding!!  Weaning will take place on her 2nd birthday, if not before! Let's hope it's not traumatizing for me! (and T too!)

Gosh I love her so much!  And Cayden too of course!

Comet update:
Cayden and I took him to the vet today, and he is a healthy puppy!  He is a little over weight though, but aren't we all!  He is super cute, and such a great addition to our family. We are all so happy!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

You know Dasher and Dancer, Prancer and Vixen.......

I need to blog...................................

It's been so long since I have had 5 minutes to ramble on to everyone!

So Comet is here, yes we got a puppy!  He is a pure bred Golden Retriever, and we heart him so much already, especially Cayden! (we wanted to adopt, BUT we also wanted a golden...but we are still giving a puppy a great home, right)    He is welcome addition to the Lauziere family!
Alas it is like having a "baby" though.  I or John have to get up in the middle of the night to let him out, and he pees on puppy pads at night (kind of like diapers you lay on the ground).  But let's hope it's only for a little while!

Sorry I had to go break up a play fight between Comet and Cayden!  The fun never ends in this house!

All the neighbors are in love with Comet as well, it's so cute!  He went to the office with John yesterday, and all the hockey girls thought he was the cutiest thing!  Thanks for watching him girls!

Cheers to the new adventure that all of us (yes, YOU too... the next time you see us out and about, or come over for a visit) are about to embark on!

(and I say cheers because this past Saturday John, the girls and I went to our friend's house for a little kids/adults party...needless to say I drank a whole bottle of champagne by myself!  It was wonderful, except for the headache ALL day Sunday, ah to by 21 again!!!)

Wednesday, March 31, 2010


The girls and I really want a puppy, John is like "This is going to be your dog...."  So we are on the look out for the perfect Lauziere family puppy!  I really want to adopt, and I prefer a puppy only because of the kids, and the cats! We tried a 1 year old dog like 3 years didn't work out!  (Neely, I'm sure you found your forever home with a family who LOVES howling, screaming, pooping, and peeing all over their house!!!)

So we are taking our time, and looking for a golden retreiver, or a mix that looks mostly golden, PUPPY??!!  We want to train the dog, a fresh baby dog!!

And when I say "we" I totally mean me!  But you already knew that, right?

We will see?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Saturday, March 27, 2010

I guess it could be worse, right?

Absence makes the heart grow fonder, right??? I think it makes me apreciate him more???  I just want John home because I need 5 minutes to myself!  It's been a long weekend, and it's only Saturday night. Almost time for bed, thank God!  John if you can hear me "COME HOME"!

side notes : 

Taytum has been sooooooooooooooo naughty all day! I totally jinxed myself a couple of entries ago with the great toddler, it's over!  It's offically in she is sneaky naughty, and right-out-in-front-of-you naughty as well!  So it begins........................

Cayden has been pretty good, I've only yelled at her like 5-10 times today! Pretty much about the same things over and over and over.....................

I hate yelling, but that's all I do!  I think I need yelling therapy, I'm sure it's out there somewhere!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Maybe she needs her ears cleaned?

Listening is becoming increasingly hard for Cayden. Please tell me it's her age!  We have our good days, our so-so days, and our OMG I am going to pull my hair out bad days.  Well today has been a so-so day for my first born.  She is constantly asking me to do things, and she says "PLEEEEEEASE Mom", and because she says please she expects me to do it, or get it at that very moment!  Um No says me!  And she keeps asking and asking and asking, you catch my drift?  It's kind of annoying, I'm not going to lie! And if I ask her to do something she doesn't want to......WATCH OUT!  "You stop it Mama"   This is only the beginning right??!!

 I will keep you all updated on Cayden and her A-TI-TUDE!

Taytum is a pretty good toddler so far, but she does NEED her Mama quite often, How often you ask?? Pretty much all the time!  The only down fall of Miss Taytum, clingyness to her Mama!  Other then that she is a running, try-to-talk, crazy typical toddler!

God knows I love both of them more then life itself, but MAN!! 

(apparently clingyness is not a word that spellcheck agrees with, is it even a word??) 

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Lauziere dance party yiippee!!

My girls LOVE to dance! I'm pretty sure they get it froooooommmmm ME!!??  Although back in the day their Dad could grind with the best of them.  (or the worst of them, you should have seen the girls he was with before me...wooof!)

( john busta movin' on Christmas morning, love the head lamp, and the polarbear pants, babe!)

Cayden does ballet and has her recital coming up in 3 months, and that should be interesting to say the least.  When I say they love to dance, I mean in the comfort of their own home, kind of like their Dad.  He hides behind things so the neighbors can't see him busta movin' when we have a family dance party, wimp!  So I will pray with all my might to see her on the stage with all of her friends having a blast, and not sitting in a seat with her Mom crying because she wants to up there with her friends, dancing!

Taytum, I am not worried about, in fact I might send her out on stage in Cayden's tu-tu and see what happens!  She is a riot, and doesn't stop dancing, whenever she hears music at home.  Even if she is sitting on the couch, her shoulders will start moving around!  My little ballerina to be!  I hope she has ballet class with her friends Greta, and Ady-Lou in like 2 years...!!  I'm sure Taytum will be the naughtiest little ballerina there, no worries Amy and Mandy!!

Off to finsh dance party USA with the girls...oh wait it's 7:30 it's bath time, yeess!!!

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Good times!

Just some bathtime pictures!
The girls love taking baths together, thank God! Memories that will always bring a smile to my face!

Friday, March 12, 2010


Today I went out on my own without any children.  This may not seem like a big deal, but I left the girls with someone other then my husband.  Back story...

The only people Cayden has ever been alone with since birth besides John (and it took me over a year to let HIM stay home with his own daughter, I blamed it on the nursing, yes I was a little "crazy") is my sister Amber, and our friends and neighbors Jessie & Larry.  Amber watched her when John and I went in for our 20 week ultrasound, and Jessie watched her when I gave birth.  Now she goes with my sister ALL the time, I don't care, but before when I left her those 2 times I was really sad hysterical!  Maybe it was the hormones?????

Taytum has never stayed with anyone but John, until today.  My plan was to take her and leave Cayden with Cait, Chart, Jana, and Katie  (when you call one of these girls she is sure to bring more, and I love it!) but when I tried to take her, she wanted nothing to do with me, what-ev???!!!  So I left, and didn't look back!
I was out for 2 hours, and would have stayed out longer, but the girls had to work a lacrosse game.

So to sum it up, Cait, and whoever are coming over next week to watch the girls so John and I can celebrate our 4 year anniversary, and I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SIDE NOTE:   I really was crazy after Cayden was born, but I didn't take anything for it, I just pulled myself out of crazyland, but it took a LONG time!!! 

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

I'm trying

Back to the gym for me!  My groin hurts so bad, but it's worth it to hopefully lose the rest of this awful baby weight!  The best thing would be for me to stop nursing T, but she would LOSE her mind at this point.  Soon enough she will not want to anymore and then I will be sad, but not that sad! 

Sunday  cardio, ab & adductor machine
Monday  cardio  (the treadmill ate my USM ID card, John didn't believe me, he said I doubt you were going fast enough,  until they called him yesterday and said " ahhhh your wife's card just came out of the treadmill...."   So there John I was going fat enough, you jerk)
Tuesday  off
Wednesday  cardio
Thursday  off
Firday  cardio
Saturday cardio
Sunday   start over again with CARDIO, CARDIO, CARDIO!!!!!!!!!!

Let's hope I can stick to this schedule, or close to this schedule????!!! We'll see............

Friday, March 5, 2010

Yet more reasons 2 is enough!

8am   I called So Po Pediatrics to schedule a sick child appointment for Taytum.  The answering service is still on yet the message says M-F 8am-5pm... I'm already mad!

8:01   again
8:03   again
8:07   again
8:07   Finally I get to hit the #2 button to schedule a visit, what do they do but put me into a vm box, seriously?
8:11   I say put someone on the phone who can get my daughter in today...Hello this is blah blah, how is 1045??? 

8:13-10:00am  I listen to Taytum cry, so fun! 

10:35    We get to the office, and all is well with miss crabby pants??? 
10:40   Nurse Sharon takes us down, asks us some questions...  
10:43   Dr. Erin walks in ( I really do heart her)  and gets right down to business.  She cleans Taytum's ears because they are soooooo waxy they can't see her middle ear!!!   She pulls out gobs of gooey wax, and I am loving it!  Taytum is so good, she sits on my lap, head on my chest letting Erin do whatever she wants to her!
10:55   She has a double ear infection, and one was really bad...she sais there was puss???
11:15    Pick up prescription for cefdinir, and motrin!!! 

Not a "bad" afternoon....

3:00   We leave to take Cayden to the dentist.  We ALL go because I know Taytum will sleep in the car.
3:25   John drops Cayden and I off at the dentist, and goes driving so short and blonde will stay asleep!
3:30   Dr Scholl takes Cayden and I back to our little room, and on the way to the room cayden says  "I don't like her Mama"  OH GOD  is what I am thinking...
3:33   Cayden starts SCREAMING, SPITTING, and tells YELLS at the dentist, and I quote, "I hate you!"  The wonderful hygienist then says, "Where did she hear that word from?"    Bitch (opps)
3:40   I feel like the worst Mom in the world, my 3 year old tells people she HATES them?  I really have NO idea where she heard that from?  I will admit to things, but I have NEVER said "I hate _______!" 

Yeah so what she called a 6 year old bitch( totally out of contexts though) the other day. I asked her where she heard it, and she said "you called me that Mama."  I think back...I did say it to her, she was yelling at me and I said "stop being a little bitch"   I AM A BAD MOM!!!!!!!!!

7:13pm  Finishing the blog, doing baths, and going to bed!  I love my girls, but today I wish I were on a beach somewhere, in a bikini (because I am a size 0), sipping ice cold alcoholic beverages... BY MYYYYSELF!!!

and I picked fights with John all day today for the fun of it!! 

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Road trip continued..

If you were wondering how the road trip to Boston went....It went great!  Cayden was a little nervous to get on he big bus, but she saw her BFF, Cait, and decided that it was cool to be on the bus with the hockey girls!  I sat in the front with John and Taytum, Cayden was off in the back with her "friends" lol  (I get really bad car sick, so I had to sit in the front of the bus, I went back once to check on Cayden and I thought I was going to throw up everywhere...)

They lost the game, so finally hockey is OVER.  Although it is nice having my husband back, I will be missing the hockey girls so much!  And really do I have my husband back....what does he do besides make another mess for me to clean up, sigh! Love you John! 

So now that I know Cayden loves the bus, she will be taking lots of road trips with her Daddy next year.  To think I am actually looking foward to the 2010-11 season!! hahahaha I'm nuts!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Road trip

To start off Cayden isn't feeling well today.  Low grade fever, cough, and no voice; just a cold, I hope!  Taytum is wonderful, sitting in a wagon made for blocks playing with toys she can reach while still sitting in the wagon, it's too funny! (Please don't mind her dirty socks, wow am I a thorough cleaner!)

About the road trip...we are going to Boston on Saturday with John and his hockey team.  They are playing UMASSBOSTON @ 3pm, it's the 1st round of the playoffs.  This will be the 1st away game we have ever been to, and not only that, I think we are going to go down on the bus with them?? Am I crazy?

Yes, yes I am!........

But the girls really want us to go with them to Boston.  I hope they know that their quiet bus ride down to Boston will be filled with the giggles, pitter-patter of little feet, and lots and lots of TEARS!! (Hopefully none of the tears are mine)

I will let you know how the trip went on Sunday.  Go USM HUSKIES!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Chocolate macaroons

I love playdates, why you ask... because I love talking to other Mom's about EVERYTHING! From birth to boobs, death, "herms" (if you were there you know what I mean, I love Chrissy), husbands, you name it, and we can talk about it!!!  It refreshing to know that others are going through, or have gone through, things that you are experiencing now.  Ohhhhh...

And the children just run around and play with the other kids, or by themselves. They get tired and fall asleep on the way home, and ask "When are we going back to Amanda's house again?" (Cayden loves her horses, we went to the barn and saw them before we left.  She is not scared at all, and patted all the ones that came to the fence to see us!  I think lessons are in her near future, I hope I get a discount because I know the owner, lol!)

So I am hoping for another "playdate" soon, or a Mom's dinner night out!  Just to talk, catch up, and maybe have a drink or two!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Face issues

Bare Minerals, have you heard of it?  Well I finally did something for myself, and ordered a starter kit, and the jury is in, I really like it! 

I have rosacea, after having the girls, my skin in NOT the same as it used to be.  And so January of 2008 I went to the dermatologist, and low and behold I have rosacea, and I HATE IT SOOOO MUCH! It went away when I was prego with Taytum (I love my skin when I am pregnant) but it is back again.  There is no cure, but they can try some antibiotics, if I wasn't nursing, but there is no guarantee??? And do I want to be on antibiotics for the rest of my life??????  So instead I heard about Bare Minerals... if I can't get rid of it, I will cover it up!  And like I was saying, I really like it!

If you are looking for some quality make-up, check it out!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Best Friends Forever

Cayden tells me I'm not her friend at least once a day, what does that mean?  Was I her friend to begin with?  I'm pretty sure I'm her Mom?!  I love 3 year olds!

And as I am writing this, I am thinking ahead ,oh I don't know 11 years, and if she think we're not friends now....WOW I can't wait until then!  Or can I????

 But then again before we go to sleep every night we say...
Me -  "I love you with ALL of my heart, and ALL of my...."  Cayden-"soul"  

Together- "Best friends forever!"  

Me- "You'll always be my 1st, and Taytum will always be my last (?)"  

Cayden- "I know Mama!"

Cute huh!!

Off to play birthday for Dada, AGAIN! 

(His birthday is the 18th, big mistake telling Cayden about his birthday a week before!)

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Dr. Shawna

I have been up for 2 days now! Taytum is so sick with a runny nose, eyes, mouth, you name it...and a double ear infection too! So "sleeping" while sitting up in bed, or on the couch really isn't sleeping. I am so tired, I can't even sleep. I tried to nap today when Taytum did, nothing! And she slept for maybe 20 minutes...

Sick babies are so hard. You feel so bad for them because they have NO idea why they can't breath, why their ears hurt, and why you as their Mom, their whole world, would wan to put them down! :(

.......I think today she is feeling better.........tonight will be the true test.

And I am snapping on John and both girls about everything, even though I don't really mean it. At least not on the girls!!

{So I took Taytum to Mercy Gorham Urgent Care,(gut feeling something was wrong with my baby girl) and the Dr. was a whack-job. She was so weird, and asked me this, "So the left ear is border-line, and the right I can't see anything because there is too much wax, sooooooooooooo do you want us to treat her with antibiotics??" UM YES?? says Dr Shawna???? lol
But it was great having the ER like 3 minutes up the road!}

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Listen to your gut

Yesterday Cayden had her weekly dance class. It is a ballet class for 3 year olds with the most wonderful teacher ever.  She loves Mrs. Betsy, all of her friends, and dance too...

Let's bring it back to yesterday morning,  she woke up with a little cough, and congested, but no fever.  She laid on the couch for most of the day, she looked really tired??  So when it came time to get ready for ballet I asked her if she wanted to go, and she said "YES!"  And all day I kept asking her, "Are you sick, does your throat hurt, etc."  And she responded all day with "NO, I"M NOT SICK MAMA"

My gut feeling was she should stay home, but I let her go anyway!  (Sucker is tattooed on my forehead)

And did i mention it was watch week yesterday?  Parents get to watch every the first class of every other month.

Do I really have to tell you how it went?????? HORRIBLE!!! 

John met us there, and Cayden was having a blast running around with her friends so I thought, OK this should be great, why was I worried about bringing her???
We get into the dance room, and she wouldn't get off John's lap.  So he decided it might be "him" so he left.  So I then I had Taytum running around, and Cayden pouting, and wanting to sit with me.  I told her if you don't dance we are going home and going to bed.  She said she wanted to go home, so I walked her out when all the little girls were having a water break, grabbed Taytum who was following us with Cayden's water bottle and we headed home!

John met us at the door, and help me get the girls to the Jeep.  Cayden was screaming at this point, "I want to dance now" she wouldn't let John buckle her in.  Both of us had to hold her down to buckle her in, while she was spitting and crying.  ( God I love these days)  John went back to the rink to "do a few things"  (whatever?)  and I went home with Taytum (angel baby), and Cayden (OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE I BIRTHED THIS THING WHO IS SPITTING AND YELLING MEAN THINGS IN THE BACKSEAT).

                                                *this was in December, not from yesterday*

She was telling me she hated me, I was a stinker, screaming, spitting, yelling, gosh you name it.  Since when does a 3 year old say "I hate you Mama"!! My heart was so sad, but I was so mad that she was throwing a fit like this my brain took over!

We got home 3 minutes after we got into the Jeep. Thank God we live close!  I took off her dancewear, and her tu-tu that was soaked with spit, and put her in comfy clothes.  Off to bed she went with her blankie, and sippy.  I shut the door, and she LOST it.... kicking her door, spitting, yelling, screaming!!  I let her scream for 5 minutes, went into her room, marched her to our bedroom turned on the TV, and within 5 minutes she was out!  She needed a nap really bad, obviously!
And what's worse, she woke up at 5:30pm like nothing had happened, "I love you Mama, I missed you"!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!  This motherhood thing is soooooo hard.

So in conclusion Mom's, go with your gut feeling.  If you feel that feeling of maybe we shouldn't, listen to your inner self.  That instinct is there for a reason, learn from my mistake, listen to your gut, because from now on I will!!  So I say????!!!!

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Are you serious?

This was a challenging week for me, not as a Mom, but as an adult.  I got into an argument with my sister over something that we never should have fought over.  We fought in the morning, and by that night (like most sisters) it was over.  I said things I shouldn't have, but that's the way I am...a fly-off-at-the-mouth type of girl!

However the person who we were fighting about, time out, here is some background info...

Someone (you know who you are if you are reading this) posted something that I didn't appreciate on their FB.  I did not want to start something with this person, so instead I called my sister to vent, and that's when we got into a heated debate/argument.  But like I said it was over by the end of the day...

The next day this person emails me and states, "This was my opinion (blah, blah, blah) You shouldn't have been mean to your sister (blah, blah, blah)  I will acknowledge you if I see you out, we are family, but we don't have to be friends (BLAH BLAH BLAH)! 

And I replied back ARE YOU SERIOUS, etc.....!?

Long story, short, I have no idea where we stand, and I stand by everything I replied back to her in my email.  This is all on her!!!  

I don't have time in my day to take a shower let alone fight with someone who feels that I am not important to her in anyway.

Family & Friends = the ones you love, and who you would do anything for, and knowing that they love you, and would do anything for you!

*I think I might be using my blog like a therapist, hope you guys don't mind!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Fall of 2010

Should be doing my job, but house crap can wait, right??

So I mailed out Cayden's preschool application today for next fall. Sad, yet needed. She is ready for school NOW, but nowhere would take her this past fall (she was only 2). I know we got into the afternoon class at Gorham Cooperative Preschool, and how do I know that we are in there even though we JUST sent out our application you ask...

Here is a "quick" story. John was supposed to mail out Cayden's application this past November... So at ballet class the other day I ask the registrar if I would hear from them soon about next year. It turns out they had not received Cayden application yet, yup!!! I then checked or bank records to see if the registration fee check had been cashed, NOPE!!! Long story short, Thank Goodness I know Theresa, she put her in the class even though they didn't have our $ or application.

John is lucky, because if she wouldn't have gotten in I would have killed him! Men, they are all the same. We are all very excited for Fall of 2010!!

Side note I love his hockey team! They are so funny, I laugh the whole time I am around them. Caitlyn & Steph (manager & assist. coach) want me to go to Rye, NY this weekend with the team. (and go out to some bars) Last time I went out to some bars I was in a bee costume, walking home from the old port, with my shoes in my hands, hammered (mind you we lived in So Po over the Casco Bay Bridge)!!!! Tempting if I didn't have kids, 8 hours on a bus with 2 little ones............We'll see...maybe.............

God help us all!

Monday, January 25, 2010

my enemy

I despise dishes. They are my enemy. And the worst part about hating dishes is, I ALWAYS have a sink almost full-FULL of dishes.

Why you ask? Because I hate emptying the dishwasher, and reloading it! I will clean, do laundry, and whatever else needs to be done, but the dishes, ergh! And I suppose it doesn't help that I have a one year old that thinks she "needs" to help me when I open the dishwasher door. It's like a cat that hears an electric can second I am by myself and the next, tah dah there she is smiling like I am giving her a big piece of yummy chocolate souffle cake from Fore Street. (sorry I was daydreaming about going out for appetizers with friends, before children)

So I am off to do dishes, maybe, or better yet I should check my FB just in case there are any important messages for me to respond to...

Saturday, January 23, 2010


If you didn't know, my husband coaches the women's ice hockey team at USM. And right now our whole life revolves around hockey! I love his team, they are fun girls, who when I am around them make me feel like I am 21 again. ( I miss being 21) Anywho, I just get mad when John can't leave his frustration at the rink...

He lost last night 4-5 and was pissed...and the rest of my night went like this...

"Cayden stop crying, you wanted cereal you are eating cereal" SAID JOHN IN A SCARY YELLING VOICE. And then just more yelling and snapping over every little thing.
"I'm sorry I'm snapping at you guys, yada yada yada" (no yada, but you get my point) says John.

It is just getting old, hockey, and I have another month and a half left. And I go to the games with the girls to support him and his team, but towards the end I just feel like if I hear " We suck, I don't know what to do, I am a bad coach, (whine, whine, whine)" I think I might lose my mind!

*Positive note Taytum has been playing by herself for the last 45 minutes, and I love it!! (Cayden is at the rink with John which is where we are headed in an hour!!)

Thursday, January 21, 2010

To be vampire...

So this might sound weird for some of you, but for others you will totally agree with me... I want to be a vampire. Not because I have an urge to drink blood (disgusting)! It's because people actors, authors etc. have totally made it super cool and sexy to be a vampire.

Just think, to be gorgeous, a size zero, have lots of money, power, to live forever, to see soooo many things...the trade off is you have to drink blood, whatever I could do it!!

But then again, the two little ones behind me would make me think twice...because you can't have little baby vampires, that would be way to weird!!! (heehehee)

So in theory, the idea of being a vampire is wonderful, but in the long run I would choose my family over the perks!!!

But I hope you all know vampires are NOT real, and I think I need a nap!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Lack there of

For all of you who don't know, I am a LIGHT sleeper! I wake up at every little sound, scratch, peep...ANYTHING! So I "wake up" at least 3-who knows times a night, ahhhhh, I know!

Last night was a night like the rest with a few exceptions. Taytum woke up twice for her nightly milkshakes (that's normal for us, stop judging me and the fact that my 15 1/2 month baby still does not sleep through the night, it is between me and her...and I know I'm crazy) Cayden woke up at 2:30am and wanted a cookie, what?? And then stayed awake until after 3 am, moving all around the bed! So I finally fell asleep around 3:30ish, and woke up at 4:19 am because I had a horrible dream about my sister, jeesh I think I was hyperventilating in my sleep. Back to sleep, up at 6ish, Tula scratching at our door, silly kitty who I wanted to throw outside in the snow, but didn't! Another weird/bad dream about me breaking John's Blackberry and ATT not giving me a free one to replace it....... Taytum up at 7:30 for the day!

Yes we are all in the same bed. I'm sure that doesn't help with the whole light sleeper thing, but oh well! Yes we are stupid for never putting our girls in cribs (EVER). Yes we will probably ALL be sleeping together until they are teenagers. BUT John and I both love it...most nights!!!

AND for all of you who don't know, John snores so loud that most nights I send him to Cayden's bed so I can get some sleep! And I can still hear him sometimes. I sent him to the doctor to see if they would/could do something for us. They told him to lose weight, and then come back and see us...that was over 4 years ago, thanks John!!! So that ALSO doesn't help with my sleeping problem! What to do??????

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


Taytum is going on day #27 (?) with the disgusting, runny, boogery, green nose! ahh!

From now until like June my kids will be sick. Yes there will be times when it looks like they are not, but trust me that means that a virus is brewing deep inside their little bodies. I feel bad wiping her nose 24/7, so I just let it run, and run, and run... I am that Mom with the boogery kid in the cart @ Target! I know, I know what you are thinking, "Shawna let's her little girls face get that disusting, I never thought I would see the day!" AND I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD EVER BE ONE OF THOSE MOMS!!! WTH happened to me??? Cayden that's what happened to me! She has turned me not only into a mother, but a mother who let's snot drip(I mean run like a faucet) from their childs nose into their mouth!!

God who have I become........................................................?

Oh yeah a Mom!!!

Monday, January 18, 2010

I am a liar

So I guess I'm a liar! My previous entry from today stated I hate naptime, it's a joke, 30 minutes max, blah blah blah.....Naptime was a success today 12 :41-2:04pm... and playing outside was a success as well, for the most part!

It's been awhile....Morning in Maine

It's been a long time since my last blog entry sorry, so here you go....

It's snowing in Maine, in January WOW! About a foot of snow on the ground already, and it's 11:20am... What are we going to do today, well play outside of course! When I lay Taytum down for her nap, Cayden and I will venture outside to "play" in the snow. T will nap for all of 30 minutes (if I'm lucky, I hate naptime, it's a joke) C and I will go outside and trudge around in the knee deep/waist deep snow for as long as she wants!

Playing with C in the snow = eating snow, trying to make a snowman, sliding down her slide from her swingset (which is soooooo fun, the heavier you are the faster you fly, if I only had the video camera on when John went down the last big snow storm... it was so funny) and then it's her crying and whining "I can't make my legs work Mama" "Come and pick me up"... Me laughing and leaving her laying there in the snow like a slug...and making secret snowballs to throw at her and her Dad when he comes out to tell me "Taytum's awake and wants you"!!

Don't get me wrong I love it!! It may sound like I don't, but I love it!!!

Oh and I have to pick up my house, because I am the ONLY one who does, but that is a blog entry for another day!